goodbye everyone, im migrating to taiwan .

today when i was heading back home from PA , i encounter funny things.
there was an empty seat and i was standing right infront of it. i didnt move because i know that an uncle beside me wants to sit. so i continue listening to my mp3, then suddenly he asked me
"can i sit down ?" and points to the seat.. "yes sure" i answered . He went towards the seat. just as he was about to sit down , he says" forget it "... so i sat down .

then theres this lady (middle age), she came to me and say if she can squeeze together with me on one seat. (HAHAHA) i stood up and let her have the whole seat . she sits down and say " you sure?" and i said yes. she kept looking at me with that wierd look throughout the journey to redhill mrt station. she finally alighted . then this time, another middle age woman immediately ask me:" can i have a sit also?"

why in the world people are asking me if they can seat on public seats or not? i check my back to see if anyone actually prank me by pasting a sticker on my back saying" please dont snatch my seat from me" @_@


君子 小人 总在一念思量
i have check this phrase before and its really correct. Actually this phrase is quite true for me . Knowing that eating food that is bad for my health is a sin , but it is a matter of choosing . whenever i choose , there will be a bad and good side, usually my mind will tell me to be in the good side, but my hands dont listen to my mind. Its such a pity , i have to cultivate myself abit more.

i think i have some problem with myself. firstly , my sister has an good impression of somebody , and she keeps talking to him. every night , when im watching chinese paladin with her, i found myself watching alone for the next half of the show. maybe i have a tinge of jealousy ,but i didnt like that guy at all. Once when my sis was talking to him, i ask her to let me talk to him for a while, so she gave me the phone and i greeted him . Wth , he never even answer me . Since his so timid , i didnt like him to be my brother in law. Failed the first test. haiz, its such a pain to get in a relationship. Everynight in the midst of sleeping , suddenly a vibration will occur and i know what happen already . i cannot imagine my siblings to have girlfriend or boyfriend, because it seems so fresh to me. even my 20 years old brother, never have an affair before.
I so scared i will ruin my sister life just like that. But i feel very terrible , its seems like a catastrophe to me ,its just like the feeling if someones betrayed you.

talking about that, breakups tend to be a rising theme in anyhow art 2009. two timing is bad enough , deluding oneself is even worse. release yourself from the torments and heck care about self esteem.

good luck for anyhow art .
:)

doctors exam was really interesting. at first, the examiners will come and examine me.
then check my nerve and ankle reflexes , then my goiter, and also test my heart rate and bp. and some bruie that i have to stop breathing so that they can hear it using a stethoscope.

basically there are 2 types . hashimotos and grave disease.
so the jr doctors must diagnose whether its hashimotos and graves.

to differentiate. graves disease usually will make the patient's eyes become swollen sore. and will have double vision. but hashimotos wont.
haha the first doctor was a male, and he was so nervous, he keeps rubbing on the tendon stick or something to test the anke reflexes. than he hit my goiter so hardly.
he merely pass the test only

but the second woman was a bit old to be a jr doctor already . she got a distinction for identifying whether mine is hashi or graves:) one day ,i also want to have this kind of examinations.

i gave the money i get for being a volunteer to my mum. i think she deserves it all for taking care of me so much :)

anyway just finish, the 3 day camp in crescent. and im so tired. i slept in the night. and sleep from 1-5 pm on sunday . but suprisingly i was still able to sleep in the night.
but i never want to never awake from my sleep.

i was discussing this with xinyi today. i think i will be all out to sacrifice for my family. during the camp , i was told that my brother has entered the hospital due to stomachache. the first thing i thought was liver problems. and at first he was diagnosed with kidney stones. but it was a wrong diagnose because the radiologist did not find any kidney stones. his back was so pain that he cried. i think i rather have all this pain. its better to have it on one person than many people right?
sometimes i feel that me and my brother share the same fate. its nonsense , but just as i had problems, he had problems too. so if since i had problems first. i think why not just give me all the problems. i think it would be better off since he is in ns now. but this 伟大的牺牲 is only for my family.

lets talk about life and death now. i think its always right for a child or a parent to stay alive. if not for oneself at least for others. leaving first is always very heart wrenching . thats why i always wanted a same age husband when i was young , because there is a saying from olden shows. for sisters.
虽然不能同年同日生，但我们可以同年同日死。

hee, but i will change my mindset when i grow up again.
so for most old people, they always thing that money is the most difficult issue to solve and the most headache thing to settle, and always end their life earlier.
to me, the most difficult issue to solve is to encourage one another to live on , whats money?
to die without giving their child a chance to help them is an selfish act. theres still a glimpse of hope . my ah gong knew this fact and is indeed different from what i always hear from.

everytime, i almost get knock down my car, but in the end im still safe. i always think" its not my time to die yet".
live well.

oh yes, i forget to mention, im actually a very friendly looking but fierce girl. especially to male . and im extra protective of my friends, so dont mess with them. or you will get it from me.

i shall continue this topic another time

came across some videos

if you know ms ris low




actually i dont really dislike her. humans are so contradicting.

first of all, that doctor who ask me to be a doctor's test didnt call me:(
not only i cant witness the doctors exam, i also cannot get my 80 bucks to repay my mum for spending so much medical bills on me. such a disappointment.

cool myself down i havent started on hw yet because i was busy reading 11 celestial zone comics everyday of this week.its time to start! my holiday schedule is so hectic.
monday - drawing of blood again
tuesday - go to school
wednesday - piano for 2 and a half hours ( i wil die)
thursday - sat morning- dance camp!

saturday - go ah ma house, and read my comic again. celestial zone x is out
sunday -pa

then the next week maybe bit more free, but i still need to do hw and research on taiwan's trip
i applaude to my sis for planning the bones of the taiwan trip even though she have a levels.
finding the food is not easy . i think next time i will never go free and easy trips. unless my dad plans for it .

oh yes i actually forgotten , my sis book me out for the whole of the first week of december for her prom nite.

i dont think prom night is a good thing . firstly , spent too much money . just an entry fee cost 70 dollars. while but once is a life time is okay . but then i rather save up money to go to my genting that i havent been to for more than 10 years.

2ndly , its so time consuming to find a set of clothes.
3rdly , must stay up till so late at night. i think i will just fall asleep on the table.
4thly, i dont really like taking so much photos.

okay i m sleepy

why is it me , or my sis and brother .
this torment again and again.
sometimes i really hate dreams. its always lousy and bad dreams. i dream that my dad had eye cancer right after my ah gong died.

i hate why theres cancer the possibilities of cancer that make people so frustrated.
i really hate married couples who cant grow old happily and fight the whole day long
i hated women for snatching away husbands from their wife
i hate men who cant control themselves.

i all the more hate people who view money more importantly than anything else. in the end , the arrows will be pointing at the children .

cycles are boring yet frustrating .

i claim that 2009 isnt a good year at all. maybe the last half of the year, after my birthday .
everybody seems to be no good and not good.
i think my sister can be the strongest in our family already , she has nothing wrong so far.

oh yes recently i have be watching dramas . mainland dramas
like

仙剑 1 and 3
momo love- hee the brothers are interesting
射雕，神雕，天龙八部，碧血剑，聊斋，

and comics like
天界无限1，2，21
薔薇之戀-the brothers here are also wierd.

one look like a girl ,and is in love with his brother.

the week has ended, and it doesnt seems like holiday started.
because i have o lvls!

i cant believe that my brother watch taohua xiaomei during his duty times. haha he must have laugh at the brothers. if my brother was so extreme, i think i will just live together with my sister and brother next time. when they get married , i can take turns to live in their house:)
haha , i cant wait for a wedding dinner.
i going to an restaurant for my cousins birthday . why cant all cousins and aunts and uncles have birthday celebration in a restaurant , or at a place with superb food. whoo, luckily im free!

at 2003, that was the last wedding i have attended. believe or not im the flower girl! haha , i still had short hair last time, and all the other flower girls was wearing the same shoes, same white dress and the circular head thing with flowers on it.

i wore a blue dress to the chinese dinner.
wah , peking duck , roasted pig skin, shark fin, abalone, scallop, jellyfish .etc

grr, brother and sis please get married soon.

thats another reason why i wanna grow up fast!

this week was a not so good yet good week , if i consider dance.

okay ,i ate yongtau foo today , and it was so nice. but the kuay tiao just spoil it. i should have just ordered full bee hoon.